For my entire life, not going to college was not an option. My parents didn't go to college, didn't even graduate from high school, and I've always been taught that college was not an option, it was a necessity. Sometimes I wonder if college is really the best thing for me...but I know that I can't take time off to figure that out because I'm too afraid of the judgment and disappointment it will cause, and I'm too afraid that I'll realize I really do want law school and that taking time off will keep me from getting into my first choice. I'm a first year, I never thought that what law school I wanted to go to and the LSATs would be so important so early. I'm drowning.